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03 May 2006 @ 07:13 pm
Corrie to confusion  
I guess I should update.. So here goes… Just where to start from really.

Well, On Sunday my sister Kayleigh came over with her fiancé and kids, Erin (10 months) and Aidan (nearly 3 years). It was great. I had lots of Erin hugs, which is unusual because of course my sister usually forbids me from going within about a seventy mile radius of the kids. Aidan came over and was sat perched on my knee for a while, and I sat by him at dinner and everything else. All was good. In fact, me and Kayleigh have been closer this past few weeks. I really hope things are changing between us two. I hate how we’ve been for the last fifteen years of my life. I literally have about three good memories of her, and they’re stupid things, like making Mud pie (as in the dessert) and her doing my hair for me… Anyway, now I kind of feel like I have a sister. We were just laughing and joking, spending time together.

Hmmm, then Monday was of course a Bank holiday, so we all went to Warwick castle. It was good fun. I pushed Erin around in the buggy and we watched sword-fights and the trebuchet and Birds of Prey. Ha, and we were all stood watching some people dressed as peasants trying feebly to sing, when my sister’s fiancé Nathan noticed that we had a celebrity among our midst. It turns out Chris Gaschoin, who played Corrie’s Peter Barlow was stood a couple of metres away from us with his wife and gorgeous, ginger kiddies. So we hunted around all of us for some paper and a pen but found neither, so I ended up sprinting to the ice-cream stall to borrow a pen, and asking him nicely if he’d mind signing something for me…and handed over the schedule for Warwick castle! Awww, and he said I had all his love, which was cute. (I have a bit of a crush on him. He’s very charismatic and attractive in person)

Then after Warwick castle we went to KFC, where we managed to lose Aidan. My sister just turned round and panicking asked where Aidan was. I went sprinting through the service station, and found him. I knew where he’d be. There was a little model of the site which he’d gone to look at on the way in. I was almost sure he’d just gone back to there, and he had. I was so scared though. It would kill me if anything happened to my Aidan.

Right, then Tuesday… I managed to miss the bus, couldn’t get to school so ended up staying home and watching shows like Loose Women and Hope and Faith… how very educational.

Which brings me on to how I’m feeling today.. Okay basically I’m depressed and confused. It seems I’m drifting apart from so many of my friends, and I hate it. Fran in particular. I just feel like however hard I try some thing is lost and I can’t get it back. This is with a few of my friends. I always rely on my friends to be there if ever I need them, if ever I’m about to fall or something. Now, they haven’t done anything to make me believe this, but I’m beginning to suspect that maybe if I fell back and allowed them to catch me, one or two might hesitate a while before supporting.

And then as for guys, I don’t know what to do…

There’s one guy I love more than anything. I’d give the world and everything in it just to be with him, even if I could only be with him for a week, or a day or less. I love and adore him and I’ve no reason to. He treats so many people like their worthless. He shows off about how great he is, then pries for compliments with his ‘I’m ugly’ phrases, which are ridiculous. He knows who he is. He’s the guy every other guy wants to be, and every girl to be with. The ground turns to gold as soon as his feet touch the cobbles. Dark skies turn to blue with a simple smile.

Anyway, then there’s another guy, and I’ve not really let on exactly how much I like him. I’m crazy about him, absolutely crazy. This will be probably the time when my friend realises just how much I like him, not anywhere near as much as the first guy, but still a great deal. I’m trying to get my friend with him though (what is it with me trying to set people up?) I know they’d be perfect for each other, and besides, she needs and deserves some happiness. I wouldn’t get with him anyway. There’s too much at stake, whereas, with her it would be so simple, exactly what she needs.

Then there’s another. I like him, but as of now I hardly get to see him at all, and things are a tad awkward anyway since we got drunk and, I think, kissed. I don’t know what it is I like about him, but it’s there…

I’m stopping there. There are other guys I like, but there’s problems with but several of you can’t hear about those, so let’s not! Righty-ho, that was long and boring!

Oh and Loz, I love you honey!

Verity xxx
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: None
(Anonymous) on May 3rd, 2006 07:21 pm (UTC)
Verity, for the last time, you don't have to set me up with him! I don't even like him that much, and you know it would never work anyway. I step down. Honestly honey, I couldn't be happy if I knew that I was upsetting you. I mean that. Plus, there's plenty more fish in the sea (as much as I DESPISE that phrase), I'm sure I can find someone else easy enough. He just happened to be there at the time. I like him about a billion times less that you do. I barely even KNOW him. Go on V, go for it, I don't care at all!
Love you lots,
"Your girl is lovely Hubble"natures_law on May 3rd, 2006 07:43 pm (UTC)
Re: Ugh!!!
No... it'll never work between us anyway. I'm happy as long as you are. As far as I see it it's hitting two birds with one stone. I get to make you both happy. PLEASE?

Carrie xxxxxxxxx
Biddallfransta_oddbean on May 3rd, 2006 08:58 pm (UTC)
I don't know why you feel the way you do about me and you Verity. Nothing has changed, except we are growing up now, and I'm a little bit older than you, hebnce I will grow up quicker than you.

I'm stressed out at the moment, college is getting me down and mum's on my case, add to that the stress of contacting universitys when you don't even know if you want to go or not, and don't even get me started on my finacial status!

We're not drifting babes, it's all in your head, because you've got things on your mind, so have I and I just don't really want to talk about it, because it just gets me down further,

Don't think I'm having a go, I just want to set you straight and let you know why I'm not myself.

You know I'm always around if you ever need me xxx
Laurensugarwren on May 5th, 2006 06:52 pm (UTC)
Told you so